heart of the matter

Not sure why I'm writing

2009-08-20T11:48:00.000-07:00

Hello peeps,
Haven't written on this wall in ages...not sure why i'm writing
Ithink it's coz i'm studying again in the lib... kina brings back memories of when I first started blogging- in school while studying in the lib
So many things have happened since the last time I was here...over a yr ago
God has been so faithful to me and all those around me
My one friend is engaged, another just got her green card, one passed all her boards and is now a pharmacist, one graduated from her masters, another got her work permit at the last minute! etc
God has been faithful to my family too...I am grateful
And even in my life, God had seen me through 2 board exams that i've passed, another is coming up and I know He is able
I am still looking up to Him to perfect all that concerns me
Over these months I've met so many interesting pple...and "potentials" too!
...even though some of them never made it to "kinetic" hehe
Oh, and my sewing has brought me so much joy!
I love that I can just think it up and create it
my most satisfaction is when I sew for my friends and they just love it!
I shld put up a few pictures
Over the past months I have also loved, been hurt, moved on, circled, cried, laughed, wished... and so many emotions
I will keep the details to my anonymous blog :)
Sometimes I wish I could take a few things back, but I never would have known, right?
Now I'm considering loving again...
I wonder if it is a bad idea given what I had to go through
But I am stronger than what most pple know and I surprise myself too
I know God has got my back though and He will chase any "wolf" far from me before I allow myself go
... the thought/possibility of moving to naija keeps crossing my mind every so often nowadays
I know I want to go home and serve... we'll see what God has in store after that
I also have a lot on my plate now: exams, applying, graduation etc
It is well
Ok, having been as vague as possible, I will now end this entry and go back to studying
...Q: do you believe in true love?

Happy New Year!!!

2008-02-25T17:55:00.001-08:00

Wow!
Can't believe this is my 1st post this year!
I've really been slacking o
anyways, it feels good to be writing again
Not that I have anything in particular to write about
But lets see where this rambling gets us

So I've been busy a lot lately with school
Writing my 1st board exam in about a month, yikes!
Its exciting that I'm making progress in school...and also exciting that i'll be done sooner than later!
So my schedule is a 6 day schedule where my day starts around 8/9 and ends around 10pm
I take Sundays off so that I can have something to look forward to!
...and also so that I can go to the mall!

I did something exciting today!
I have 3 projects I want to work on this year...ok, maybe 4
1 of them is to learn how to ride a bike...thats for the summer! can't wait
(next year, i'll learn how to swim!)
The other 3 are more of my hobbies...that I want to get a formal education on
One of them is tailoring...almost got started with that last year but the class got cancelled as they didn't have enough students enrolled...so I had to go return my sewing machine...but not until I'd made a dress from a pattern!
(i won't even wear that dress to sleep...might have nigthmares!)
But trust Momsy now, once I told her I enrolled in sewing classes, she sent like 4 material to me to practice with! I have since taken them to the tailors and made outfits with them!
The second hobby I want to get trained in is photography!
i've been loving that since high school...I was one of the few people that owned a camera then, and my physics teacher, who used to "wash" the films for us always told me how well I took pictures...maybe he was being nice...but i've loved the idea of having a dark room since then to "wash" my own pictures...but we are now in the age of digital photography...so i'll blend in
The 3rd, which is the one i'm starting a class in is one I just within the past few years develop a growing passion for
I'm so excited! I can't wait to start!
Classes begin next month! Its kina price...couple of thousands...but i know it'll pay off!

So that class an my upcoming trip to Naija is what has been keeping me motivated!
I can't wait...especially the Naija trip!
Haven't been home in 7 yrs!

Told you i'd find something tangible to talk about amidst the rambling
...off to my books I go again!

ciao!

A Foolish Mistake

2007-12-14T13:43:00.001-08:00

So I went to my first game ever last night
It was the Heat vs Wizards game...and it was awesome
Yeah, the Miami Heats lost but my experience was beautiful
Nothing prepared me for the sight as I entered the court from the VIP lounge
yeah, VIP
My friend's childhood friend just started playing for the Heats
So my friend gets about 3 VIP tickets per game
We drove through the traffic of cars and people heading to the game
and made our way to the back of the American Airlines Arena
where all the players park thier cars
Then we were ushered into the lounge after a minor security check
That was beautiful in itself
But the breath-taking part was walking through that passage where the players come onto the court from...
It was so unexpected
Coming from all the dim light of the lounge and into this huge court with flood lights as bright as day
and then walking behind the players to get to our seat
*sigh*
We had a great view from the Sec 109 we were seated and I quickly looked for my favorite player- Shaq
He was there, in all his glory
He took off his jumpers and got on the field, he was playing the 1st half
I learnt a lot during the game to the embarassment of my host...lol
Now I know why they let the opposite team take free shots...its because the other team has "offended" someone ...lol
During half time, we headed to the VIP lounge and I'm sure many people there were famous
Didn't recognise any though hehe
Headed back to the court to watch the second half
Some crazy fan that was painted in what looked like blood (to represent the Heat, I suppose) was charging to the front but he was quickly apprehended and taken away
The game ended with the Heat losing to the Wizards, but it was ok, I still love them anyways
We headed back to the lounge and who do we see?
Jammie Foxx
He looked a lot skinnier in person
I went up to him, said hello, after fighting to the army of girls that were carressing him
I asked for a picture and he obliged...so we did
Moving on, we headed to the parking lot
My friend wanted to sign some autographs...
We gave the Valet guy our ticket and he brought our car...a far cry from the other cars in the garage...but who cared? lol
Joel Anthony, my friends friend came out first
He was looking all sharp in his grey suit
Exchanged pleasantries, took a pic and was chit chatting
Then came Earl Barron
I have met tall people...but dang....that guy was Tall!
He was walking towards us so when he got close to us
My friend approached him for an autograph
He obliged and then I asked for a picture
It was a lovely picture...we look so cute together...lol
He stayed on for a second and then I said bye...and half ran, half walked away...lol
So my friend was like I should have asked for his number
really? Funny thing is it didn't even cross my mind
Am I a slacker? or am I just plain slow?...lol
I didn't want to be a groupie or embarass Joel
But thinking back now, that would not have been a bad connection to have!
bite me!!!
The other players began to filter out and we got more autographs and pictures
Then came Shaq...he was packing face men!
All of them were, they lost the game but Shaq's face coulda killed
but me I needed my picture...crap!
My friend asked him for his autograph, he obliged and then I asked to get a picture
Everyone was so nervous...we couldn't find the damned camera!
We eventually did and I got my picture
Wished it was a better shot but the one I got will do just fine
We got to see thier wives and kids too
Our mission being accomplished, we drove home
All feeling very star-stricken...lol
One thing I know for sure is that Sagamu did not prepare me for a night like yesterday!

NB: Pics will be on FB soon!

Clinic Today

2007-09-21T14:11:00.001-07:00

Hello guys,
How have you all been?
Its been such a while since I wrote on this thing
But I feel it might be helpful for me to write today
I had my first Clinic in Miami today
He was not my first patient, I've had a couple in Dom
But he was my first patient here...and the one with the saddest case
He a young handsome hispanic male
(I really am not allowed to disclose much...HIPAA)
When my partner and I started interviewing him
He said he was brought in by his step son because he was becoming too forgetful
But he was not clear as to how and when it started
Anyway, it turned out he had HIV encaphalopathy
That means his disease had progressed to a stage where it was now messing with his brain cells
He also had HSV-II ( Herpes Simplex Virus-2)
He was just like any other regular guy
Had a happy healthy family
Had moved to FL at the age of 18 to get a better life, etc
He was very optimistic though
He kept saying he was leaving the hospital soon that he was only waiting for his insurance to pay up so that he could go back home
But the truth people, is that he's never going home again!
He will remain in a nursing home for the rest of his life
Because he now has demensia and retrograde anmnesia
He will not rememeber to take his meds, or use the bathroom by himself, etc
So there you have it people...
Pls, pls, pls....its not worth it
be health smart...HIV no dey show for face!

k, i feel much better
Other stuvs are going on but i'll have to yarn y'all later
BTW, my landlady is a b****!

America We Hail Thee

2007-08-16T08:10:00.000-07:00

Chai...
So I told you guys there's a hurricane Dean coming our way
Here's an email they sent to us in school:

The American Embassy will be sending a plane to pick up any American citizen that might want to leave the Island today
Please call the office of student affairs if you want to be on this flight

Ha! so what happens to the remaining people that are not US citizens?
How come the Nigerian embassy is not doing the same thing?
Don't we matter? Who is looking out for us?
You gotta love America men!
I don't care what anyone says...they always look out for thier own
No matter where you are in the world, if you register with the US embassy in that area
They will always get you out of any quanta

So pple, I need your prayer once again
Potbelly just called me now and asked if I wanted to be on that flight
I told him I'll stay...
I am beginning to get concerned!
I've gone to get my supplies and I will be staying in my apartment with Inem
She's a Naija girl that stays at the unit above me
We are expected to be locked in for 3 days
We might lose power, phone and internet
I believe God will be here with us
But you can call this number at NJ for more info during the storm: 732 978 5300
Ajala also has the email address...
my bro doesn't know coz I don't want my mom to know
my dad knows though

Later guys...
I will be back! amen!!!

Just To Testify

2007-08-15T08:21:00.000-07:00

I just wanted to testify that God is good
He is able to make everything alright
He is so faithful, even in my unfaithfulness
When you feel like you're at your lowest
That is when God will pick you up
And put you on His shoulder
And then He makes everything ok

After my post yesterday, I still could not study
So I kept playing solitaire...lol
Then potbelly called me and I told him what crappy day I was having
He decided to come over so that we could go over questions like we normally do before the exam
He came around 7 and we studied till about 10:30-11pm
Then I studied some more till 12midnight
I prayed and went to bed

Woke up and reviewed some more
I am just pleased to tell you that ALL that we studied was on the exam today!
Is that not God?
God allowed me to do in one day what other have been doing in one week!
I honestly think God is very partial to me...lol
as in He's always looking out for me
no matter how "prodigal" I go on Him...lol

So I have one more to go
This semester I had 10 exams and 3 papers
And the last one is next week!
Can't wait...I know God's grace will be sufficient for me on that one too!

On other interesting notes,
We have a hurricane coming our way!
It's called Hurricane Dean...and they say it should be here by friday
It has actually started raining!
We are supposed to find a buddy and stock up on food and water, etc
It's kina exciting, kina scary
I just don't want my mom to find out coz she'll freak out!...lol
The last time she came to visit, the night she arrived there was an earthquake!
She was like "oya, we're going home"...lol
my mom...my darling mom

Anyway, I'm off to bed now...didn't get much sleep last night
And thanks for your concerns, everyone that was concerned and called me yesterday
May God visit you when you're down too...amen!

One of those days

2007-08-14T08:43:00.000-07:00

I'm so upset right now
I feel like crying, maybe I'm crying
It's just one of those days when everything seems to be coming together at the same time
Its school
Its family
Its finances
Its...life!

I'd really like to expand but this is a public blog
I've been having this constant non stop headache for the past couple of days
and no matter what I take its still lingering

I'm unhappy because the person I love most in this world is unhappy
And the person causing the unhappiness is my other most favorite person in this world
I just wish everything will work out
and we can all stop making each other unhappy:(

The other thing that's making me unhappy is that someone just requested another large sum of money from me
If I don't find it soon, I'll lose something that I've been working on for a while
And I don't have the money right now
And I'm worried as to where I'll get it

Then I have a major exam tomorrow that I feel I'll never be ready for
And nothing stresses my out more than school
I feel that is the only thing in my life I really have control over
(by God's grace)
And when I feel I'm loosing grip of it, I freak out!
Well, I am beginning to freak out right now

And this darn headache won't go away!
arrggghhhh!!!!!

Happy Buffday Gurl!

2007-08-09T14:28:00.000-07:00

Go shordy
It's your birthday
We gon parry like
It's your birthday!

Pls everyone one o, help me and wish the only Queen in my life a very happy birthday o!!!
Hmmm....my love, you are getting old o
You need to sit down and really consider your life o
What have you accomplished in ALL these years you've been here?
ehn?, all your mates are now grandmother's
you're still doing yanger all over the place
hmmm...

I beg no kill me o!
hehehehe... you know I'm older than you now
Anyway, just wanted to welcome you to the club!
And if any of those thoughts ever crop up in your mind
(not like the crop up in my mind or anything like that...weird)
Just tell your mind all these beautiful things about yourself
You are very beautiful, both inside and out
You are very generous, both materially and otherwise
You are grounded, in character and in values
You have a wonderful family that adores you
You are such a great friend...thanks for all these years
You are well read ...and still reading
And so much more!!!

Just wanted to tell you that I love you
and I appreciate all we've been through together
and yes, we have been through so much together!
It's been such a blessing knowing you!
You're real...and that's what I like best about you
You're one person I can tell pretty much anything to
without having to sugar coat it
because I know you'll understand, and listen, and not judge
and then you'll give your 2 cents

So there you go!
Now you know it all!
Love you girl and have the best of the year
...and looking forward to more life moments with you!!!

On other friendship notes,
My dearest friend and guru
The sister that I never had is going home today
She will be gone for 2 whole weeks!
Ha! how am I meant to cope?
I mean, she's my can't-make-a-decision-till-I-talk-to-my-guru friend!
Ist was Kay, and now Tolani
In fact, that Naija, I have to go there soon
There's something there that's just calling all my beloved ones to it
She seemed excited though!
And she'll be meeting my mom for the 1st time!
my mom can't wait to see her either!
hehehe

All the Naija crew, sha make sure y'all bring back my designer baffs when you get back
otherwise, you might not be feeling as much love from me anymore
(not that I'm superficial or anything
or that I love my clothes more than my sister-friend or brother
or anything like that)
Sha bring back my baffs and all will be well!
lol...told you guys I kill myself!

That's all folks...gasta go study now
for some reason everyone else is

Littles things

2007-08-08T11:31:00.000-07:00

I got this note from someone yesterday
...not even someone I really talk to o!
I just thought it was really sweet, it made my day

Hello friend,
lol. I just wanted to say that I think you are what every person strives to be (lol). You seem to be at peace at all times, I've never seen you without a big smile on your face that just radiates. I want to live in peace like you do one day, feeling completely at peace... I see you and I see God's work in you, it's makes me believe more and more. I'm gonna pray for you, I hope you pray for me to... And please tell me you are going to Florida and that we'll be friends forever.
Love, Cxxxx

I later saw him on my way to dinner
I gave him a bear hug...lol
He was so shy, he's in my class too

When I told potbelly
He said "how come it's only white boys that like you in this school?"
I said its because there are only 2 black guys in the whole school
and one of them is gay!
He said, "O, is S*** gay?"
Idiot!
Me I just think he has bellus

Anyway, just thought I'd share
Life's little blessings!

Let it Out!

2007-08-07T10:57:00.000-07:00

I think I should have studied philosophy in school
but its ok though, I might go back for my masters
right after an associate degree in Tailoring :-)

Have you ever thought about it?
Anything that comes out of you relieves you
When you pee
When you poop
When you fart
When you cough up a sputum
When you cry
When you share a secret
When you vent
When you scream
When you sneeze
When you sweat
When you tell someone the way you feel about them
Plus some other things I'd like to leave to your imagination

And the opposite is true
if you hold any of the above in
you feel a lot of pressure, physically or mentally
and it might make you not feel too well

So let it out people...and feel some relief!

Like a game of Solitaire

2007-08-04T08:21:00.000-07:00

My peoples o,
However many you guys are, lol
So you must be wondering what kind of nonsense heading that is
Some of you might also be wondering why I'm blogging when I have 6 exams to go
(BTW...my exams were 8 and not 7...I've done 2, 6 to go
so for those praying, pls adjust your prayers accordingly!)
lol...i know, I kill myself!

Truth is, I'm wondering why I'm blogging too
I'm feeling very guilty "wasting my time here"
but its all good, I'll do anything for my readers

So I went out last night, it was kina impromptu
My friend, H, called me up and said she wanted to go get a few drinks
I told her me and alcohol don't gree well
so she opted for just dinner
we went out to eat but somehow ended up at a lounge
it was fun, a bunch of people were out
and we were just cracking up and making jokes
also caught up on some rumors and noticed a lot of people don't like each other in this school

Anyway, the reason of my topic
I was trying to study last night when Ajala called
we hadn't talked in a while and I was just thinking about him when he called...weird
I was in a "deep" mood when he called
and it took him over an hour to try to figure out what I was being "deep" about
So i told him...but he didn't believe me

BTW...that game Solitaire is a game from the devil (spider solitaire to be exact)
players beware!
As in, I spend so much time playing that stupid game, its ridiculous
Funny thing is that the game is really boring
but I like it coz I don't have to use any brain power when I'm playing it
so it helps me think and relax
maybe a bit too much

So this is what I learnt from the game:
I have since graduated to the 2 suit level
and I noticed that sometimes I would play and a game and not win it
then I would pick the option that says "restart this game"
and for the most part when I played that same game over
I would still not win it
but when I opted for a new game, I had a fair chance of winning
so I thought about it
Life is kind of like that
We are human beings...and for the most part we do what is best for us
So sometimes we make decisions
that in 20/20 hindsight vision we wish we did things differently
but we're only able to feel that way because we have more information and already know the outcome
but chances are, just like the game of spider solitaire, if we were able to start the "game" over
with the same cards...
we would probably still make the same decisions
because that was the best we could do with the cards we were dealt at the current time
I guess my message here is learn from your mistakes
but don't spend time regretting your decisions
because you did the best you could at the time
with the cards you were dealt!

So have fun guys... and live a guilt free life
And always remember, aunty Saint T loves you
but Jesus loves you more
out!

Words

2007-08-01T11:52:00.000-07:00

Many times it not what we say
but the things we don't say
that affect other peoples lives
.
.
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Happy birthday dad!

Isn't it lovely!

2007-07-30T06:34:00.000-07:00

Heya!

So after consulting with my 2 gurus

I finally settled on the second one

Mainly because its so close to school

and also because its more spacious!

I was also able to put a deposit on it, which seals off thr deal

But not before I had to call to cancel the 1st contract

And men, was that a tough one

What suprised me was how concerned I was of the 1st Lady's feelings

that it took me almost an hours of convincing from Tolani to finally be able to call her

But she was pretty nice about it and she promised to tear my application and check when it arrives

I will sha still call my bank to cancel the check

Being from Lagos, I can't let a kokoye show me Miami style!

lol

(ok, that was just wrong...no porn intended)

...

Dilemma

2007-07-28T21:05:00.000-07:00

I have to make a choice between 2 beautiful apartments now!

The first one is with My apartment in Miami blog

And it is on South Beach but 30 mins from school

I will be driving against traffic (good) ...but only one brigde leads in and out

So God forbid there's an accident, they'll be no alternative way

This other one is just 12mins from school

In the heart of everything

And it is a cottage... like a whole Bungalow!

But I am still lobbying for it

The thing is though, I have already sent a deposit to the 1st lady

and I will feel bad calling her to cancel

Do you think I should if this other one falls through?

And yes, they are the same price!

BitterSweet

2007-07-27T15:39:00.000-07:00

It is with all kinds of mixed emotions that I am writing this blog to you today
You see, today was the last day of class for me in medical school
I mean I still have 2 years to go
But as some of you may know,
we have basic sciences for the 1st two years (and I really don't see anything "basic" in the sciences I've been learning)
and then 2 years of clinical rotations
so that means I will never formally have official medical school ever again
By God's grace knowing I will do excellently well on my exams
Which as some of you might be bored to death of knowing is 7 more to go
The madness starts on Tuesday
and it is like every other day for the next couple of weeks
then I move to Miami, baby!!!
but for some reason I felt like I was the only one being sentimental in class today
I mean the class was not even full
pple started taking pictures and I forgot my camera at home!
I sha took some with other pples camera
will update it soon
and yours truly was looking the part now
you know that dress up look that you try to play down with a pair of regular slippers
yep, thats what I gave them today, lol
what i actually liked best about the outfit was the way my butt was nicely shaped in them jeans
with my top slightly covering it
but not enough so that you still noticed it
then the belt gave that illusion (even though its real) of a very thin waist
ha! it was nice
i kid i kid...maybe not
So myself and some of my friends kina went down memory lane today
remembering how it was the 1st time and etc
they said I looked like i-don't-play-that when i first walked into the classroom during orientation in 1st semester
they also though Kay was my boyfriend and that he was the student as he was the one taking notes
some of you might remember how unhappy I was the first couple of days when I got here
and honestly, if Kay didn't come with me, I might have gone back home
but we thank God for his grace and his ability to help me adjust
I did, and once I stopped complaining, everything was alright
a big shout out to all those that visited!
Tolani and 'Lade...very well appreciated!
The rest of you will have to come to Miami to redeem yourselves otherwise, there will be no space for you on my bridal train!
there you go, I said it!
I still have a lot to accomplish before the next couple of weeks, so pls keep me in your prayers for strenght and stability
I'm heading off to go practice for ICM now...Introduction to Clinical Medicine
The skills exam is on Teusday...then Path lab of friday...the Pharm Shelf on monday...then.....
ttyl
...

Hilarious!

2007-07-26T18:40:00.000-07:00

This for those of you that have not listened to it already
Please make sure you are in an area where you can roll on the floor!
Click here
Have fun...the only sad part is that it really happened!

My Apartment In Miami!!!

2007-07-24T14:45:00.000-07:00

Yes peolples,

This is my apartment in Miami, by God's grace!

And guess where it is....South Beach Baby!!!

Now, some of you might not be familiar with this location, especially if you have not left your zip code since you got off the boat... but that's fine, you can always visit or better still, google the location!

i kid i kid

So I am excited...can you tell?

Something else... my computer is uncrashed!

Seriously men, some people are just so well rounded. Potbelly's neighbor fixed it for me 2 days agao. And this was something the IT department could not fix o!

So now I have the note I wrote to Moses, should I should give it to him or just let it go?

I also have the original poem I wrote to potbelly that I was going to read at the banquet...do y'all want to see it? I will have to get a request before I can put it up!

Just got back from Roseau, needed a break from school and also had to go adjust the dress I got made so I took the trip

It was fun and refreshing, there was a cruise ship in town

took some pix, we'll see how they turned out

The ship was really big though

Not much else going on except that I'm mad behind on my school work and I have 7 exams to go before I get off this Island!

I know, God is my strenght, abi?

K then gasta go

ttyl

Am I safe?

2007-07-23T09:22:00.000-07:00

Help!
Aunty Wennie's side kick just added me on facebook!
Now, I know the way she looks at me when our paths cross
the daggers could kill a ram!
Thing is I know she added me for the gossip, so I accepted
Two can play this game
In fact, I added the other side kick too!
Let the gbeborun begin!

We won!! we won!!!

2007-07-20T20:15:00.000-07:00

Hey peoples,
We won the game!!!
As in we seriously won. The score was like 40-0!!!
heheheheh
It was really fun playing...makes me want to be more athletic
Ajala will be so proud of me
And you guys need to keep up with these nicknames
Ajala in yoruba means someone that travels all around the world
(so i guess you know who that is)
Potbelly is my one and only friend here in Domi..the one Chichi has a crush on
Pimp is the one and only Bmore pimp
Pls call for any clarifications as I cannot be more explicit

After the practice I had ICM lab practice (clinical skills practice)
and I went with my dirty self
I was very muddy from the field...and thank God, it didn't rain
anyway, I enter the room and guess who is there?
Moses!
I was like great! It had to be on this very day
I mean he was there earlier for the game
and I guessed he might come from the practice
because his best-friend is in the group
anyway, i thot, its all good
2 can play this game
so yours truly just conviniently ignored him throughout the 2 hours of practice
and my preceptor- witch doctor- kept telling the group how good i was
hehehehe
that must have just killed him
I actually got sad after I left the place
I just realized how messed up the whole thing is
but its all good though

So i went to dinner with my friends
passed by my team mates that were getting drunk from the game
some pple had actually started getting drunk since morning!
anyway, after dinner, i came home
took a hot shower, turned the a/c on to the coldest
put on some funky music and decided to fill y'all in
i'm definately not studying tonight
i'll just watch a movie or something

i'm also kina worried about my apartment situation in Miami
see i was supposed to room with this girl
and the landlord is acting all funny
and she's not acting like she's really bothered!
i just want to secure a nice spot
they're all so expensive
my 2 bedroom will be 1150 each
and singles are like 1800 each!

so if y'all have some time on your hands
pls help me search for a place in south miami
especially around Coral Gables

goodnite peeps

Powder puff tomorrow!

2007-07-19T20:21:00.000-07:00

Hello peoples
hehehe..see my writing as if I have one big audience like that
anyway, for those of you my faithful readers
i am very excited!!!
i have a game tomorrow!!!
i'm talking fierce, tough American football
we play a version of it in my school which is actually tag football
and it is an all-girls-team vs another all-girls-team
thing is though...it has been raining a lot the past few days
so the field is very wet and muddy
i also do not own a pair of 'cleats' (the shoes with spikes)
so i hate to borrow potbelly's own
which is like 2 sizes bigger than me!
this is going to be interesting my friends
the guys are actually praying that it rains tomorrow so that they can see some wet and muddy "balls" juggling all around the field!
how sad abi?
i know but I don't blame them
the guys had thier game today, and men, was it fun to watch
they were so wet and muddy
and some of them actually had thier pants pulled down during the game
(the guys are hoping that happens during our game too)
but yours truly will be clothed in some serious layers
i'm talking tights, and shorts that have no hope of coming apart unless i cut them with a pair of scissors!
about the wet and muddy part, i have no control over
people actually find it hilarious that i will be playing
they've been teasing me asking if i will be playing in a dress!
can you imagine
anyway, i will show them tomorrow!
my team will win and it will be fun
just hope no one gets hurt as 3 pple have already been hurt from practice alone!
anyway, i'll be the one running away from the ball if the worse comes to the worse
i guess it's needless to say i am on the defense team and will be tackling the quater-back

on other notes, i'm feeling much better from my last blog
i have been very naughty lately but i have repented and will not do it again
i have turned over a new leaf

i don't know if you guys remember the 'witch doctor' i blogged about in my previous blogging days
she's the one from Ukraine that came across as Racist and I was going to tell her off if she continued
well, she was my preceptor again in clinic this semester and we really hit it off
i'm talking her offering extra sessions to the group...that can only be booked through me
as in she gives me a hug after the session is over
and tells the group i will do the best on the practical (no pressure, abi?)
needless to say many people in the group now hate me
hehehehhe
how is it my fault?
anyway, that's thier problem, i'm enjoying the attention
but i must say it gets spookey sometimes (like the hugs and stuff)

and Kay has arrived safely at home
spoke with him yesterday
when i called today, momsy said he was already sleeping
he had gone out with my older brother all day and was quite tired
he sounded excited though
and moms said he'd been calling everyone telling them he was around
i'm so excited for him

i want to go home too
but i also want to visit some countries
i'm really thinking about visiting Brazil while i am in Miami
that is officially the next stop on my list
I feel the need to do all these now before I start needing a baby sitter!
hehehehe

'sides from that nothing else major going on
o, the pimp called this morning
he said he saw my pic on facebook and missed me
we talked for a lil bit
i told him the yawa i was in and he gave me all the alternatives i could use to get out of it
made me confirm my feelings about the "accident"
its all good though
people come into your life for different reason
the funny thing is that he still gets jealous when he sees my pic with another guy in it!
kina cute kina scary

sides from that everything is all dandy
my body aches from the powder puff practice
and i am very behind on my studies
because of all the drama that has been going on
k pples, ttyl
goodnite

Banquet weekend

2007-07-17T06:07:00.000-07:00

Let me start by saying I rebuke every spirit of sadness in my life in Jesus Christ name
I'm talking about the kind of sadness that grabs you early in the morning
its been going on for a hot second now
just can't wait for it to go away
I mean I know some reasons why
but i really don't feel like its worth me being this sad about

On better notes, my bro is going to Naij today!!!
for the 1st time in 7yrs!!!
yep, and he's so excited...actually, i'm so excited
he's been shopping for the last month
i'm talking about shopping for up to the driver!!!
such a kind heart, bless him..lol
My mom on the other hand is going to have a lot on her plate
I can just see my phone ringing now
with either one of them calling to report to me

mom: its getting late and your bro is not back
me: what time is it?
mom: 5pm

kay: mom wants me to follow her to ladies in fellowship
me: hehehehehe
kay: i have a party in abj tonite and i'm still in lagos!
me: hehehehehe

actually, i will miss him a lot
he's my one person that i can call at anytime and talk about most things (note, i did not say anything!) i just hope i can make it through this theatre of a school before he gets back!

The prom, sorry, the banquet was a blast!
got there on friday...4 of us, 2/room
chnaged and went out to dinner
it was out on the deck, facing the ocean...that joint was on point!
then the appetizers....really nice, they brought me this sushi-like salmon
and if you know me you know i don't play that! (anything raw is...well, raw...and needs to be cooked!)
so i asked the waiter to go back and grill the shege for me
he came back saying the cook said i will get food poisoning if he did!
what? lol...that does not even make sense
anyway, the other people on the table didn't mind it
so i quickly distributed the shege around the table!
then the main course came, my darlyn steak
now, that was on point!
and then desert...coconut ice-cream and pure chocolate cake...sigh
but the real deal was the wine that potbelly ordered
i had a glass and i was out!
not out out
but i started to find many things funny
and say some stuff that seemed to be real funny to my friends too
hehehehe
needless to say we didn't go to the jazz club anymore
but quickly retired to the room
(o, i forgot to tell you in my being "out", i forgot to sign my bill and the waiter had to chase us down to our room to get me to sign it...hahaha)
got to the room, hung out on the deck for a while and came back in to watch some movies
"Evan Almighty"..was such a flop
anyway, retired to bed shortly after that

Saturday: slept in
got up around 1030am, took a shower and hurried to meet the seamstress
i had gotten some materials from Antigua and heard this tailor was good so i wanted to try her out
after the measurements and down payment
AO, SM and I headed for thr streets of Roseau
picked up a few things here and there, took some pics and headed back to the hotel to get ready
yay!!! its prom time
people began to arrive from school
everyone came over to our room to get ready
the make-up lady came and beagn to get the girls faces done
it felt like a wedding!
after about 2 hrs of everyone running around and adjusting this or that
we were all ready
so we joined everyone else downstairs and everything looked so beautiful!!! *tears*
we ate, tooks pictures, watched slide shows, they have awards (i'm coming back to that one), tooks more pictures, socialized, ate and then some more pictures
i also was able to re-write my poem for potbelly on the day of because my computer never came through :-(
anyway, he was suprised...he was actually not on his seat when i did, but i did anyway, and it was beauriful ...
so back to the the awards...it was rigged!!!
thats my story and i'm sticking to it!
imagine, the person that worn like 4 out of the 10 awards was one of the persons organizing it!
people must have felt obligated coz it was not a closed system...she handed you the paper, you filled it right in front of her, put your name on it and give it back to her!
no pressure abi?
lol, it was all good though...my friend calls her "yoga pants"
thot it was funny
the reason is because she wears sweat pants with heels to class! hehehehe
then after the banquet was the after parry
my friends and i were just basically goofing around...my favorite thing :-)
at about 3am, we called it a morning and headed back to the hotel
got up around 10am and headed for the pool
now i could really get my hair wet! yay!
"swam" for about an hour and headed back to the room to finish packing
had to check out by 12
so now we had 2 hrs to burn...the bus taking us to school was not coming till 2
so we headed to KFC
had bbq chicken, corn and biscuit for brkfast
it was lovely just being with my friends and classmates
talking about our plans for Miami and beyond
headed back to the hotel and was just in time for the buses
the ride back was fun, was listening to some pathology lectures with my friend on his iPod :)
gotta love med students
got back to school in about and hour
and *snap snap* it was back to reality!

Crampful day

2007-07-10T10:46:00.000-07:00

I would go out today and get something done with my life, but i am debilitated by my cramps!
urgh..i just hate these days of my life!
its funny, some people describe it as a visitor you hate to have but one you beg and pray for if you don't see it!
not necessarily because the person is preggy but also because (like i've been learning lately) it could be a problem going on in your body, especially your brain
so, yes, thank God he has made me healthy again this month!
ha
so since i'll be home for the most of the day, i decided to be useful with my time and blog
nothing in particular comes to mind so i'm gonna talk about anything

so the names are in for the superlatives for awards in my class for the banquet
and yours truly is nominated for best dressed
it's all good because i truly enjoy dressing up
but i hate that it has now become like a competition
i mean i had this girl come up to me and was like "i think you're best dressed after me"
i think she was drunk, but what better time to hear what is really on someone's mind like when they have no control over thier speech!
so i just smiled and continued jisting with my friend...it was at a restaurant
i actually know people who are taking the award thingie personal as per campaining for people to vote for them, so high-schoolish hugh?
i know, but unfortunately we still have some med students that should still be in high school
its all gravy though...i'll let y'all know how it turns out
i just don't like the unnecessary pressure
like everyone is now looking to critisize everything you wear!

on other notes, my 2nd major exam was yesterday and i think it went really well
i pray the results are really well too

i was asking someone the other day
which relationship do you think is more realistic?
a Naija male driver and a Naija female lawyer
or
a white male lawyer and a Naija female lawyer
that is, is culture more important in sustaining a relationship or is social class more vital?

In the first scenario, they will understand each other's mannerism and way of life but there will still be that complex especially since the female is the professional
and in the second scenario, they will be able to relate on the same level and have similar friends and not have to apologise for thier successes but then they'll be the issue of culture. As in when there is a misunderstanding, you don't know if it's just your partner or if it is a cultural thing.

that's all for now folks

and yeah, today is poet's birthday!
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Really don't know

2007-07-07T15:23:00.000-07:00

So its saturday and my exam is monday and my computer decides to crash!
As in it won't even let me retrieve any file
I calmed down and decided not to make that flutter me
I later went back home to get my old and faithful
the one i've been using since undergrad
its so beat up that I actually have tape on it to hold the monitor together!
but wey I go do? man must survive!

So like I was saying before, many waters have gone under the bridge and that particular case I was talking about has new developments
I decided to forgive and move on even though it still hurts
but the person decides to turn it around on me
and tell me I acted immaturely and i should pretty much be apologising!
men...the guts people have
some people just truly lack a conscience
so because i forgave easily, does that make me a dummy?
anyway, i'm really trying to just move past the whole thing

On better notes, the banquet is this coming saturday like I was saying
and in my break time yesterday I went to my apartment and found out that I brought a really nice alternative to my dress
Ok, what had happened was... I went dress shopping over the break but was not really successful, so I settled for these 2 dresses
But the one of them I decided to wear had no matching jewelry for it on the Island
so i've been kina wondering how the majic would happen
but anyway, I was very pleased to see that I brought a 3rd dress that I really like and I have the jewelry for it
so now everything is kosher
I also have an idea what I'm going to do with my braids...
I can't wait!
The only damper is that I had written a poem for my friend that I was going to read at the banquet and now it is in the crashed computer!
Someone pls pray that the thing will come to its senses o, and fast too.

So someone raised an arguement the other day..I'll post the entire convo later...(it's in my crashed computer)...the argument was that a guy is not cheating if he's in a sexual relationship with his partner, he can sleep with other girls, as long as he's not married and it will not be cheating
The person also said even if his relationship is not sexual and he's sleeping with other girls, its still not cheating.
His arguement for the 1st senario was that he and the babe had no business sleeping together anyway as they were not married so therefore, there is no small sin or big sin
And for the second was that at least she's not giving him any so he is allowed to find it elsewhere as long as they were not yet married
Therefore, the only place where there is true infidelity is in marriage.

Hmmm....got me thinking. I mean, this is so convinient coming from a guy right?

So I asked him if it was ok for the girl to do the same and he said no! He said its a man's world!
Ok, that's what I don't get. Why is there always a double standard?

So I provoked him by asking if it was ok to say it's a white man's world and that every black man should be subservient to the white man... omo, the boy no gree o. He said I was now crossing boundries. hehehe...boundries? I thought we were defining the world. Abi, can someone help me out on this one.

Anyway, let me stop on that note. I have an exam to write...plus I'm really hungry...can someone spell subway?

later
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A blogger once more!

2007-07-06T11:18:00.001-07:00

Ok, so I've decided to start blogging once more. I was once a very famous blogger until someone read the blatant truth about himself and told me. I tell you, its not easy being found out!
So the issue I wrote about him qas kina resolved, we talked about it and moved on....or moved apart?
Anywho, that was then and this is now.
So many waters have gone under the bridge since then.
So much to say, write, but so little time.
Thing is that I have my exam on monday and I really should be studying right now!
The 4th semester banquet is next week Saturday, Yay! and I'm still not sure how to style braids in a sexy way.
Thing is mo fe fun won tan on that day. That is en, I want to make it a day to remember...lol
i kid i kid
the thing is that I joke a lot and people that don't know me think I'm arrogant...I'm not
In fact, I'm really shy and my sarcasm is my defense mechanism.
So there you have it, take away my sarcasm and I'm the sweetest, shyest, and most gentle girl you'll ever know.
I will try to really open upon this blog, whether I'm found out or not.
Have so many people to talk about. The ones that have done me wrong or right or in between.
A very recent episode comes to mind and it raised the subject of fidelity and got me and my ex (who is in Naij and now married) talking...and boy, did he get on my nerves...he later came around to tell me he was only yanking my chain, but I don't believe him.
I'll talk about it later.
But the thing is that he was not the subject of our discussion, it was some kid in my school that wasn't even supposed to be a serious thing. Anyway, I better stop now before I run my mouth too much and get myself in trouble.
Asides from all my little continuous dramas (some of which I love to start because I feel like drama is healthy sometimes to keep jist flowing but not all the time as it can get to you), life is kosher. Trying to build a stronger relationship with God as I recently became a prodigal child...but that's for another day...and I know it'll only get better.
Ok, I have to really go and study now...and yes, its good to be back!